warning, if you're looking for a happy, life is great post, this isn't it.
Oh, I know, life isn't that bad. I just have a horrible case of the holiday blahs. I think this last year has worn me out. Sushi has had one hard yucky semester after another, none of my resolutions from last year were met, in fact I'm further behind than last year, well, let me start at the beginning.
I think the root of my blahs begin with my resolution list from last year. I made some really big goals, they consisted of. . . 1- lose the baby weight plus 20, 2- become a Pampered Chef director, 3- pay off most if not all of my credit card debt. I know, huge goals but I truly thought I would accomplish some of these goals at least in part. Yep, not a one. We kept our head above water this year, that is about it. In regards to number one, yeah, three surgery's within one year kind of stops this from happening, however, I am pulling myself up by the bootstraps this year and will hopefully accomplish this (that is unless another baby is in the picture, but that's an entirely separate post-no, I'm not pregnant). Number two and three were kind of supposed to act in concert together. I become a Pampered Chef director and I make more money thus enabeling me to pay off our debt and get ahead. However, this has not been a banner year for me. I had a hard time getting shows and then getting people to keep their dates and put forth enough effort. I'm fairly sure this is all due to the economy. Which is slowing improving. About the debt, well, due to a very large amount of medical bills lets just say it's worse.
Top this off with Sushi always being gone at work or school or worn out from work and school and well, I'm ready to wave happily goodbye to this last year and bring on the new.
I know, I know, there have been some great things this year too. My kids being the bright shining star. I am SOOO lucky to have them. They bring me so much joy. They are the reason I get up every day and slog through another day. They bring a smile to my face when no one else can. Cookie is so smart and such a fantastic older brother. He just started karate and is loving it. I'm glad we could find an activity for him. Cakes is still our beautiful, chirping sweet little girl. She has such a talent with anything artistic. She is also learning well in school and getting smarter every day. Tank is such a blessing, he was so hard to get here. I treasure every moment with this boy. I have enjoyed watching him grow this last year more than I can say. The other day I got the sweetest alarm clock in the world, he was standing in his crib saying ma ma mawm mawm ma, until I went to get him, he has also started to wave hello to people and is starting to creep along everything he can reach. Sushi is great too. He works very hard for us but I miss him quite often because he is so busy trying to make all our lives better. He is almost done with his Bachelor degree, we're beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Only a year and a half left.
I know things could be worse, heavens knows so many of our family have had a worse year and mabey I'm carrying some of their emotional burdens too. I also know things will get better. Already my schedule for Pampered Chef is almost filled for January and I'm considering looking into doing some daycare to earn some extra money in addition to Pampered Chef. If our financial burden was less I would feel so much better. SOOO, looking into next year my resolutions will remain the same. I just got an extra year of practice!
Oh, are you still reading? What great friends I have, thanks to all my great blogging buddies, I feel better now.