Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Fat. . . .
Well, it's official, I'm fat, no, not phat, FAT. :< Ok, all kidding aside, today at the gym my trainer decided to measure me since I mentioned that I'm not losing any weight even though I am seeing that I'm getting smaller. And, I'm fat. Of course, she didn't say that, it's just the facts. Fact number one, the scale at the gym says I weigh about 10 more lbs than the scale at home. Fact number two, we did the nonscientific body fat thing you hold in your hands and it says that 65 lbs of my body is fat. The trainer says 15 of those will never be lost, your body needs them but I have the potential to lose about 50 lbs of fat. Ugh, what a depressing thought. Here I thought 30 lbs would be plenty and it looks like it's almost double that. I'm also slightly depressed because one of the women at my church had a baby two weeks ago and she was back at church on sunday looking as if she has never had a baby in her life, this is her third, just like me, she looks better than I currenly do, two weeks after she has her baby, it's been three months for me. Sometimes I really, really, really hate genetics. Here I am working my butt off at the gym (figuratively, not literally apparently) for an hour and a half four days a week and she looks a thousand times better than me. Oh well, I suppose I should be grateful that my body is able to make healthy, strong babies and I am able to have kids at all and that it's not worse. I just wish it was better today. Mabey I need to look up weight watchers. . . .