Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Fat. . . .

Well, it's official, I'm fat, no, not phat, FAT. :< Ok, all kidding aside, today at the gym my trainer decided to measure me since I mentioned that I'm not losing any weight even though I am seeing that I'm getting smaller. And, I'm fat. Of course, she didn't say that, it's just the facts. Fact number one, the scale at the gym says I weigh about 10 more lbs than the scale at home. Fact number two, we did the nonscientific body fat thing you hold in your hands and it says that 65 lbs of my body is fat. The trainer says 15 of those will never be lost, your body needs them but I have the potential to lose about 50 lbs of fat. Ugh, what a depressing thought. Here I thought 30 lbs would be plenty and it looks like it's almost double that. I'm also slightly depressed because one of the women at my church had a baby two weeks ago and she was back at church on sunday looking as if she has never had a baby in her life, this is her third, just like me, she looks better than I currenly do, two weeks after she has her baby, it's been three months for me. Sometimes I really, really, really hate genetics. Here I am working my butt off at the gym (figuratively, not literally apparently) for an hour and a half four days a week and she looks a thousand times better than me. Oh well, I suppose I should be grateful that my body is able to make healthy, strong babies and I am able to have kids at all and that it's not worse. I just wish it was better today. Mabey I need to look up weight watchers. . . .

9 comments:

G'ma Nasus said...

Babies & children like mom's who are soft and cuddly rather than bony and uncomfortable. Besides you'll loose it over time anyway with breastfeeding and chasing 3 kids around.

Just eat lots of vegetables and salads.

Sushiboy said...

I love you, its frustrating to work so hard and feel like no gains are being made :(

Cheer34 said...

sometimes we have to remember that the benefits of working out will not show on the outside....weight loss....but on the inside....healthy heart, good cholesterol etc......I have come to realize no matter how much I work out how many calories I burn and how much I pay attention to good food and portion control I will never be back to the weight I was before kids or 30 years ago....my butt might be big but I don't care I can't see it.....otta sight outta mind...hahaha.....besides all your pictures show you as a gorgeous red head...

Superwoman said...

G'ma- I hope I do, I try to eat that way, hopefully this is just the wake up call I need.

Sushi- I know you do, I also happen to know you wouldn't complain too loudly if the extra lbs were gone. That being said I know you love me no matter what.

Cheer- true, I know I'm probably much healthier than those skinny girls but I would like to be a healthy girl AND a skinny girl. But, as you said, I will never be the same as I was before kids, my rib cage is wider as are my hips and my chest is much larger due to pregnancy and breast feeding. And thanks, we red heads have to stick together!

everyone- weight watchers is out, it is 40.00 a month! $40 a month to have the priveledge to get weighed and stuff??? No freaking way, not when things are as stretched as they currently are. I think I may break out the body for life book I have and use that.

groovyoldlady said...

You CAN do it...Don't give up. Keep striving to be HEALTHY and STRONG, then if you do lose weight too, it'll just be the icing on the cake....um, bad analogy...

Michelle Law said...

Girl,
As someone who struggles with this as well, I can truly sympathize. Have you checked the stress in your life? When I am stressed, there is no way I can lose. I think you need to cut yourself a big ol' break. You are beautiful, and I would never use the word "fat" to describe you. The best quote I have ever heard regarding weight and self image is, "Our bodies are like temples. It is not the actual structure that is important, but the devotion and care we give to it." Be proud of yourself for you dedication to health and taking care of your gift from Heavenly Father. That thought always gives me comfort and perspective on the "weightier matters." Love you!

Scarlet said...

Lets not forget, its the trainers JOB to emphasise some of that fat.

Oh, and STOP comparing yourself to the other lady and her two weeks after blah blah blah. She probably had a diet of water & air and can't lift an envelope due to weakness and fatigue.
All I say is :don't put/expect other peoples results onto your body

Superwoman said...

thanks, groovy, michelle and scarlet. I do feel better about things now but it was pretty sad to have reality smack me upside the head. I'll survive and keep working on it. I'm grateful to be as strong and healthy as I am and that is specifically because I work so hard so the benefits aren't in just weight but in other things too.

FOREVER YOUNGblood said...

You crack me up. I saw her the other day. Not something I would be jealious of. You are still prettier. I mean it. have a good day. lol